Grasping the moment

Blogging 101 gave us the weekend off, but encouraged us to consider our blog, use the reader and generally make some progress.

As I floated along on a tide of wellbeing this weekend, I had some inspirational thoughts for blogging, but didn’t grasp the moment, write and post. Now, as I have settled down to write and post, my earlier thoughts have floated away. A lesson then – I must grasp the moment when ideas for writing come to me and post an entry whilst I am energised with enthusiasm. What comes to mind now in this moment is the fabulous book I am reading – it’s called ‘the Payings Guests’ by Sarah Waters. I have read all her books and each one I find enthralling. She manages to take me into the heart of all her characters, so I am observing them from the inside out. Marvellous!

Keen observers will notice that I have added pages to my blog – the contents of which will be updated over time.

Too much choice?

Blogging 101 suggests we try out different ‘themes’ for our blog. Well, I have spent the last hour reviewing the many and varied themes available and have finally settled on ‘Misty Lake’ (I think!). Whilst I agree it’s good to have options, I also think that too much choice can cause unnecessary anxiety. For me, I am often left wondering if I have made the right decision and can sometimes back-track and change my mind – all very time-consuming and unsettling.


Feeling Small

Today Blogging 101 asks us to publish a post written with our ideal reader in mind. Hmmm an interesting thought. My ideal reader is someone who is willing to engage, either through contact (liking, commenting) or who feels compelled to consider my words carefully and wonder about me and why I have written what I’ve written. Searching for meaning, taking time to reflect, being curious and reaching out to ask why – this is my ideal reader. To connect with or engage with my ideal reader, I need to be as authentic as I can be. Funny thing that, as this is one of my reasons for blogging anyway  – to be my myself, open and honest and find my true voice. No more hiding!

I attended a workshop today. It was organised by the mental health charity Mind who in collaboration with my local NHS Trust, are launching a new Wellbeing Service in support of anyone who has issues dealing with their mental health. As a practising psychotherapist, I feel I have something to offer and wanted to contribute to the discussions. I am far less apprehensive than I used to be when in a group and so I felt confident about attending the workshop. Sadly, as the workshop progressed, I began to feel small and found it difficult to get noticed, to get my voice to be heard. Every time I went to speak out, someone got in before me. Why is it that it is such a battle for me to be heard?


Connecting with others

Day 3 of Blogging 101 asked that we add 5 topics into our Reader and select 5 other bloggers to follow.

Felt a bit like I had to do this, rather than wanted to. I guess the only reason I have done the exercise, is to keep up with the tasks – I don’t want to fall behind and yes, I really do want to learn how to blog with WordPress.

Tick, VG, now it’s time for bed.

Feeling empowered

I’ve just changed my tagline (for the 2nd assignment from Blogging 101) to reflect what I feel my blog is really about.

I’m feeling empowered.

Feeling apprehensive!

imageHello Everyone, I’m Lyndy and this is my very first blog post. I’m feeling apprehensive because speaking out publicly and having a voice is so alien to me. This is as a direct consequence of my childhood and how I was brought up. I was ‘silenced’ and ‘squashed’ by my mother and had to carry her shame. I am 56 and have decided it is time that I came out from beneath her shadow. This is the main reason for creating my own blog. I feel I have much to say about the journey of healing from a traumatic and emotionally abusive childhood that will hopefully help others. I would like to connect with people who are empathetic and who may have similar experiences and who may have an interest in my other reasons for blogging – my love of painting animals, my passion for walking and my ideas for writing a novel. Another topic that may crop up is dogs – on that subject, here is a photo of Amos who has come to stay for the week. Thanks for reading! Continue reading “Feeling apprehensive!”